Don't be mad, it's just a Brand New kind of Me...

*Something About You - Anthony David*

An epiphany of sorts... that's probably what I would call today. There's a moment that some of us are fortunate to experience. That place of clarity where the questions you've been asking simply begin to have answers, or at least that things begin to make far more sense than they did a moment before.

For the first time in my adult life, I feel like I am exactly where I am meant to be. Not because I've had an amazing thing happen per se, or that something has taken place that has cured all of the things I would love to fix in my life, but more because I have a sense of peace when I smell the air here. When I walk outside, the warmth, the energy I feel emanating from me feels contagious. It is incurable...it is solace...it is happiness. 

Alicia Keys said it best, "Don't be mad, it's just a brand new time for me..." I am new to the grounds that make up this breathtaking island. No more native than those who claimed to discover an already inhabited land, I am new... I am fresh skin... I am free.

As I walk along the busy morning streets, not often do I see faces that mirror my own, but yet I still feel a sense of belonging that is unmistakeable. On the scene, even less do I recognize those that would be just like myself in make, model, look, and/or fashion but again, I sense hope. Confident that there are other lesbians of color just like me... working away somewhere in an office here on this island, I rest in the knowing that I will encounter them. We will meet... and we will relate with one another. But for now, I'm content to simply be...

Admittedly, I've had my moments of loneliness in the new world, but today, today I felt my confidence return. I stood in my own skin and truth and breathed in all that surrounded me. I am here now... I am home!